I was googling how to apologize for the lack of attention and time I have dedicated to this blog the last few months in about 7 languages, but then I decided to just be forthright and honest. When I first started this journey I actually was going to start a YouTube channel, but many things including lack of confidence and social media knowledge held me back, Instead I decided to dip my foot in the water by beginning a beauty blog .... I'm an educated girl and I consider myself well spoken and somehow I've always been able to express myself through the written word with ease. Being a hair and makeup artist will make writing a beauty blog a piece of cake right? WRONG! You see there is this pesky thing called life that gets in the way. I tell myself that all of these reasons are excuses and I need to save my whining for when I'm ancient and people will care, but truth is that my life just like millions of others is not exactly a cake walk. There are real obstacles like being a mother, a wife, holding down a full time job, anxiety, money stress, and sleep among others that I often allow to take precedence over writing for my minuscule amount of readers. OK so why are you back and why am I reading this right?!?! Someone may or may not have just had a big milestone birthday which led to some soul searching. I want to know who I am and I want to live with purpose. That is ultimately what everyone wants right? What the hello kitty does that have to do with a beauty blog?!? I have a talent and I have passion and giving in to those little devils sitting on my shoulder telling me that I should just give up is not living up to my potential. I want to help my readers. Even if it's just where you can laugh a couple of times at my mommy blunder rhetoric of trying to unsuccessfully put the lipstick my 3 year broke back together, I want to be there. I'm a real person and honestly that's enough... I don't have to pretend to know all the answers or have the self confidence or looks of a Victoria Secret model in order to be valid. With that being said we are going to redefine what glamdazzlefetish means. It isn't some unobtainable ideal of feminine perfection. It's striving to be the best version of you that you can be, and stumbling along the way but always always always picking yourself back up, shrugging the dirt off and applying a new coat of lipgloss. It is a lifestyle. The beauty world is obviously a very important aspect of it but so is sneaking in that 10 minute workout I found while occupying my 3 year old with some goldfish. It's about whether or not that 3 day cleanse I found on pinterest was a complete failure or I'm glad that I tried it. It's about the fact that I feel like a bad version of Joan Jett with this pixie I am currently growing out and what I'm trying in hopes my hair grows faster. There will be quick tips for those busy bees who need a speed read on their phone waiting in the school pickup line and of course there will be my famously wordy witty banter about the latest hollywood fad for those who like to grab the cheat snack sit down and ingest it to get a few laughs along with their dose of insight. I've decided to look at this as my second career. I'm not getting paid right now but that doesn't mean it is without reward. Please be on the lookout for 3 weekly posts and spread the word so that I can reach more readers, I'm wiping that dirt off and reaching for my buxom white russian :)
